I thought senior year was supposed to be fun. It was in high school, with all the friends and thoughts of college, and AP Calculus...okay, maybe that one was just me. This college senior thing is a whole 'nother ball game. Instead of thinking about where I want to go to college (which I pretty much knew in high school), I have to decide whether to continue my education or get a job. Both paths scare me to death.

I mean, if I get a job, I officially become part of the real world. Then I have to think what job I'd even want. If I want to do something classics related, I'd have to either go back to school and get a teaching certificate of apply at a private school where formalities like that don't matter. There are no classics-specifics jobs for someone with only a bachelor's degree. Pretty much the same deal for my environmental studies, unless I want to work for the government or a not-for-profit. Not that there's anything wrong with either, but most of the jobs are in DC, and who wants to live there? I'd have to commute, and that means a fortune on gas. Then what was the point? It's also not extremely environmentally friendly, not that I care that much, but how ironic, right?

Going to graduate school isn't much better. It means a small fortune on GREs and application fees, not to mention the time and effort of preparing. I have to worry about things like fellowships and getting into the best programs. Turns out, there aren't so many environmental studies general programs. I'd have to pick a specific field. Well, I've decided that I hate ecology, and my other concentration has been geology, but do I really want to go to school to study rocks? I dunno, I guess plate tectonics and mountains and volcanoes are cool, but still.... Then there's classsics, in which all of the best programs are at the ivy leagues and their sisters. Talk about intimidating. Then there's the fact that I don't know any ancient Greek or any modern languages, just Latin. Oh noes! On the plus side, one of my professors told me that the es major will look impressive with the classics, and another said that not many people who have Greek come with as much Latin as I have, and I've translated Lucan's Civil War, which is apparantly usually considered too hard for undergrads, so that would be impressive.

By the end of the semester, though, it will all be over. One way or another, I'll know what I'm doing. I just have to get through everything now and remember to keep putting my trust in God to get me through the stress of now and put me on the path I'm meant to follow.

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